5/1/2026
Another long break since we've written, huh? I'm not intentionally trying to wait this long, rather, our lack of motivation to write is the culprit. Things have been getting better. I wouldn't say we're 100% right yet but we're getting there. We're definetely better than we were last time we were writing, that's for sure. Just been doing a lot of resting, self caring, and finding better habits that'll benefit all of us. Our sleep schedule is getting fixed, which has been improving our moods.
Oh yeah, we finished Tales of Vesperia! That's one game down... 80 more to go XD. I'm really proud of ourself for actually having the motivation to get through that entire game. Side quests and what not can happen another time, I at least just wanted to get to the credits. It was a really good game! I think Duke ended up being a really interesting character as well as an interesting final boss. He ended up not being too hard thanks to Repede and his godtier Gale Dog move (which got me through most of the boss battles in this game). I think next we're going to play Spyro Orange. It's a childhood game of ours for the GBA and we were never able to beat it as a kid. I want something more simple and easygoing that won't take me 70 hours to beat, and that game seems perfect for that.
We did try a little bit of Hogwarts Legacy, as it was, no joke, 100% off on Epic Games. Overall, it's actually pretty cool! I'm not going to continue it as of now since I want to get through our long list of games first XD but its definetely one I will be coming back to the future. The graphics are really great and I love how you can explore the entirety of Hogwarts and Hogsmeade! And the story is pretty interesting so far. We've also still been playing Pokopia, getting our town built, our villagers homes and decorating and tidying it more. I really like the items Sableye is offering and I can't wait to invite them to live in our town! He's gonna be put where the Unown ruins are, as I have it all decked out in gems and treasures just for him.
We have gotten back into archiving a bit. No huge projects, as we're still on a hiatus from those, but we are doing smaller, personal ones. We recently converted our main Tumblr blog to be for archiving and reblogging old posts from mostly 2015 and before. It's actually made Tumblr a lot more fun and I actually want to be on the platform. The mess and chaos of today is not something I really encounter anymore when I traverse the blogs of yore. A lot of forgotten relics, artists, and the like. It's a grand time, really. Makes us feel like a kid again. We are also slowly archiving all of Kubz Scouts's Yandere Simulator videos. Unfortunately, some are lost to time and not even the Wayback Machine has them. But, it seems most are still here and viewable.
Site wise, not sure what we'll be working on next. Been on a break mostly from working on it. I do know that we're debating on removing the Reviews page. That page has always been a weird one for us, even as far back as when it was first implemented into the original Traverse Town site. We like building the page(s) but when it comes to actually reviewing stuff? That's when we lose motivation and it starts to feel like a chore. I think our passions moreso lie with discussing obscure games/media and maybe giving a small review of them during our discussions. We aren't going to delete it just yet, I wanna see if I can devise some other way of us keeping the page or reusing it somehow. If I can't, then it'll get deleted or reworked into something else. I do want to discuss more obscure games/media eventually for our Roblox and Obscure games page, but that'll happen in due time. No use forcing myself to do that or I won't ever wanna XD We only have but so much energy each day to do stuff and we need to choose wisely what we use that energy for. And if our body just doesn't wanna do something, no use forcing it.
4/17/2026
Wow, been a while since I've wrote, huh? Didn't realize so much time had passed. My mental health has been pretty eh lately, and our sleep schedule has gone back to kind of being a mess (slowly getting it fixed though). That's mainly while I haven't written for so long, I've just been focused on trying to get better. I did get some work done on my site though, such as finally redesigning the Outlinks page and bringing back a lot of its older links. I have the OCs page in the works next, which I am going to rename to "Original Creations" since I want it to encompass both our own original characters and worlds as well as AUs of existing media. I also did get the motivation to work on some artwork, doodles, and a proper 3D animation test! I'm really proud of it. It only took I want to say a little over a week? I wasn't working on it everyday all day though so I don't know the proper time it took.
I have also gotten some more progress done in Tales of Vesperia. I was so sure I was at the end of the game once I got to Alexei's fight, only to find out this was just the end of the 2nd arc XD. Alexei was an alright villain, I think Van was a better one in Abyss but maybe there will be more to Alexei in the 3rd arc. Been trying to play more Pokopia as well but my motivation has been pretty out of it. It has been for Vesperia as well and most other activities due to our mental health. We bought some more books last week for our collection and those have been hard for us to pick up as well. Just gotta have patience with myself and take each day one at a time. Slowly, baby steps.
We've been getting back into Yandere Simulator. It was a big hyperfixation of ours back in 2015-2016 (probably some time after that as well). We used to watch Kubz Scouts videos all the time covering the game. We especially loved his Yandere Simulator myths videos. It's been over 10 years now since we've watched these videos and its really bringing us back to our childhood. We plan on binging not just the older videos but also the more recent videos he put out since we stopped watching him at some point and haven't been caught up with the game since.
Like I said earlier, our mental health hasn't been the best. We've mostly just been really tired from it and a lot of our days have just been for resting. Hopefully by the next Circus Times entry we're doing a bit better. No, I'm determined we'll get there by the next one. We just need a lot of hard rest, we gotta fix our sleep schedule, and keep up good and healthy habits. They're all a pain to do and even more of a pain to keep up but they're worth it in the end.
4/3/2026
April is upon us. I'm just gonna jump straight into the health section here, this week has been quite rough. Really rough, in fact. Been a while since we've had a week so bad, but things'll get better, they always do. For every rough day, there's always tomorrow. We've mostly just been resting hard and taking extra hard care of ourselves to get through this slump. At least nature is starting to bloom once again, and that's really lifted our spirits (albeit it's now caused our allergies to kick in again so we've been sneezing like crazy XD). We also don't work as many days this week due to Easter so we get a bit of break in that department too. Oh yeah, we also ended up getting a new fragment during this time. Stressful times usually warrant new fragments. We thought at first he was a fictive of Yuri from Tales of Vesperia, but it seems he's taken on a new form (or perhaps fused with the Yuri fragment?). Currently, he's taken on the appearance of Michael Afton, specifically from the FNAF 2 movie, but as a dog boy. He actually first came to us in a dream the night before.
We currently have a few things in the works for our site. First is remaking our alters page, which I plan to have certain alters (who want to) have their own individual pages with more info. We started a little on remaking the Outlinks page as well. Dunno which will end up getting finished first, who knows? Maybe we'll end up dabbling a little in something else. It's nice not forcing ourselves to push out updates (near) constantly anymore. Whenever things get finished, they'll get finished. The slower, the better, as Critter Lilia puts it.
Gaming wise, we did manage to get pretty far into Tales of Vesperia despite our mental state. I think this is the longest we've played, I know we probably got close to 20 hours clocked in in the span of a few days. I feel like we're reaching endgame now. We're currently going through the Heracles dungeon in pursuit of Alexei. Honestly? Wasn't expecting him to be the main villain, but it would explain some things. Captain Schwann being Raven was certainly a twist, though I had my suspicions Raven was, at some point, apart of the Imperial Knights. The concept of his heart being replaced with a blastia and that's what is keeping him alive is really cool. I also did play a bit more of Pokopia, mostly just us continuing to decorate Withered Wasteland and slowly make more and more of it look nicer.
Onto other gaming news, TWST JP! Overblot Riddle is finally here and his card is looking amazing, as expected. We also have a new event coming which could either be Cinderella themed or The Great Mouse Detective themed. I'm leaning more towards Cinderella due to the patchwork/thrown together design of Epel's outfit, but I'd LOVE a Great Mouse Detective event. Whatever it ends up being, Epel is looking adorable with that outfit and his mouse ears!
3/27/2026
Been a bit since I wrote, mostly been busy with life stuff + focusing on working on aspects of our site. The Video Game page is finally back (now known as the Obscure Games page), as well as the Roblox page! I also created a Reviews page as well. I decided to split it into three pages. I wanted two separate pages to talk about obscure/old games and Roblox games since they're both big passions of ours and I want to archive/document them to the best of our ability. I also wanted to create just a general Reviews page to review more well known media. I also decided to just combine our General Gallery and 18+ Gallery together. I'd rather just have all our 18+ works combined with our normal stuff instead of separate. The reasoning for this? Well, I always felt I had to make our site "mostly clean" for visitors. Have the 18+ content kept away, in a sense. And I never liked that. It felt like I was still denying some part of ourself that really just wanted that to also be a regular part of who we are. It may not be appealing to everyone and might even drive people away, but what matters at the end of the day is that this is Our site made for Our enjoyment. I did put more warnings on the Landing page to compensate for this, but from here on out we're not hiding away these parts of ourselves.
Onto other news, been getting further into Tales of Vesperia. I was on a bit of a break but I played for 6 hours straight on one day during this week, and I think around 3 another day. Currently, I've made it to Nordopolica on the Desier continent, and we're going after Regaey who has stolen our crystal ciel crystal! Also, Patty FINALLY joined our team and I'm so happy. I'm so intersted in her character, and she is so powerful in battle! I kind of hope she is the granddaughter of Aifread, that'd be super interesting for her character.
Onto other things, Twisted Wonderland JP got its next story update! The main cast finally got to meet Mickey Mouse which was so cool (and also so bizarre XD). The Inter-School Tournament has started too and we finally got to see what Jasmine and Rielle look like... or should I say Prince Minajael Tealrajah and Prince Rielle Corallia! They're super cool so far and I love their designs so much. I also love that they're tied in to the NRC kids too, as I suspected they would be. We even got all the RSA dorm names as well! Aurarym for Alice's dorm, Privalo for Nala, Marinafinne for Ariel, Dunasmina for Jasmine, Charblanche for Snow White, Psycheros for Megara, and Rosa Auroria for Aurora. I think I've cracked what most of these mean. Privalo is Pride and Valo (meaning light, referencing "Everything the light touches"), Marinafinne is... well Marine and Fin XD, Dunasmina is Dunas (dunes in spanish) and Jasmina (Jasmine flower), Charblanche is Charwoman (cleaner woman) and Blanche is just white, Psycheros could be Psyche meaning Spirit/Ghost but also referencing the Greek goddess Psyche who was Eros's wife, and Eros is well, also a Greek God and means Love, and Rosa Auroria is just Briar Rose and Aurora XD. Aurarym has me a little stumped, though. My best guess is the medical term Aura which means seeing lights, hearing voices, etc. due to a neurological condition and Rym is sometimes used as an alternate spelling for Rhymes/Poetry so...? They are pronouncing "Rym" as "Reem" in game though so, I'm not sure XD. Can't wait for the next update, I wanna see what the other RSA kids look like!
Onto our health, we've been doing better some. We've had some bad moments mentally but things are looking up. Our physical health hasn't been the best, and allergy season hitting us has only made things a little worse XD but its looking up too. We're getting our sleep schedule back on track so that's definetely been helping with our mental health. Just taking each day, one at a time, and doing what's best for us and our happiness.
3/17/2026
Currently have the Reviews page in the works, and with it I took an unexpected turn and have learned Blender a little XD? Okay, technically I'm not new to Blender, I've dabbled in it over the years and even have a piece from 2024 posted up in my Gallery that I did in it. But, this time I actually learned how to animate! Originally, I was just going to edit a model of FNAF World's Funtime Foxy to look more like Juicebox and slap it onto the page... but then something in me was like, "What if I did a lil simple animation for it?" and learned how to do keyframing in like under 30 minutes. I always thought it'd be like wayyy harder than how it actually ended up being. I did two animations, one being a test and one that'll end up on the Reviews page! You'll see both posted to my Gallery soon, I'm super proud of them! I wanna practice more with Blender, not just with animation but doing more pieces inside of Blender and maybe (once again) trying to tackle actual proper 3D modeling. I did technically do some 3D modeling sort of recentlyish, I was editing Gladion's model to look older + have longer hair and new clothes/accessories. Dunno if I'll ever showcase that since its a huge WIP, but maybe one day I'll work on it again.
Speaking of Gladion, we actually got some Gladion content in the year of 2026! In Pokopia of all things! We did get Aether Foundation content technically, if you go along with that theory, but getting actual Gladion content was not what I was expecting. All it is is being able to obtain his hairstyle from a Dream Island and a little entry about him winning in the Battle Royale Dome, but I'll take it!!! I'll take those crumbs and live off them till we get more Gladion content 10 years from now XD. I told myself I wasn't going to timeskip and just collect the stuff from the Dream Islands over time but the moment I saw his hairstyle was in the game I said screw it and timeskipped. Luckily, it only took one time! Now I can play as (not) Gladion in my abandoned post apocalyptic Kanto :D. Honestly, that would make for a really cool AU, I might do something with that...
In other Pokopia news, I'm slowly beginning to build things to my liking. I'm cleaning up Withered Wasteland, making things look real nice and I'm even start construction on a restaurant near the Pokemon Center! I also have soooo many dandy flowers near me, Pidgey, and Professor Tangrowth's house (yes we all share a house). What can I say? I love dandelions! I'm unsure if sunflowers are in this game but if they are, those are also gonna be everywhere cuz they're my other favorite plant XD I haven't touched the other three places, or Palette Town, quite yet since I'm focusing on Withered. Well, okay a focus on Withered and Rocky Ridge's museum XD. I'm working on the museum as well and its sooo fun collecting all the different bones and relics and decorating the place with them. And Gimmighoul is so happy about it too! It's one of my favorite locations in the game, which makes sense since I used to be obsessed with Blather's museum in Animal Crossing and collecting all the items to give to him.
Onto other news, mental health recently has been... not great. A lot has been happening and it's made following our schedule and patterns really difficult, which also doesn't help with mental health XD. I will say, a positive did come out of everything that has been happening. Lilia gave Nezzera the ability to grow moth wings and Nezz is so overjoyed! He's always loved moths and felt a deep connection to the character Moths from the game Purple... so, we're thinking he might of evolved to be a bit of fictive of Moths now? Anyway, right now they're just baby wings but he's gonna take good care of them so they can grow huge! Times are tough right now, but some good news is we're going to go see our partner really see soon and spend some days with him! That'll boost our mood a lot.
3/12/2026
Got around to making that page dedicated to Project: MECO as well as making it dedicated to all of our major projects. Figured I'd repurpose the "Fun Stuff" page since the design of it is one of my favorite pages I've ever done. And now I made it more Nitro+Chiral themed! It's a small change, but its one I really wanted to do :D. It'll also help for whenever I want to add in new pages, I don't have to keep adding buttons to the index (sidebar always on the left) cuz... it was definetely starting to get crowded XD. It also makes me feel proud seeing my other major projects on more display than they were originally (they were just links smacked onto the Outlinks page before).
Onto Pokopia, I did finish the game! Well, the main story anyway, you can't ever technically finish a game of this genre. Overall, very interesting story! A lot of mysteries that I don't think we will ever get clear answers for, but I think that leaves room for a lot of theories and interpretations. It's also such a dark tale for a game so cutesie on the surface. Like really dark, and I think if this game was allowed to have a higher age rating we would of seen this game get even darker. But, for it's rating its still pretty dark and the storytelling told through the environment is so good as well. Going through all these abandoned, familiar places and finding old homes, records, its haunting. I think the creepiest moment for me was finding the abandoned S.S. Anne and just walking through it. Something about that gave me chills.
I think the foundation the game kept referring to was the Aether Foundation, but then that raises so many questions. Why would they keep the weather that was happening a secret from the world for so long? If they told everyone earlier people would of had more time to prepare. I wonder when that took place as well, because I want to know who was the leader of Aether at this time? It seems very out of character for Lillie or Gladion, if it was them. I assume at some point, once Lusamine recovered, she would come back and take back her position as leader so it could of been her, maybe? Then there's the mention of Team Rocket having a new leader, like who is that? Who was the hacker? The university student? The Team Rocket member we were hearing the recordings of in the building on the beach? So many things to wonder... I do think the humans will return one day. That rocket we sent out at the end of the game contained the extra fuel Team Rocket was planning on giving to everyone so they could return home.
Health wise, we're doing alright. We had a few rough days but things are looking up again. Just taking each day one at a time, doing our best to self care and do what makes us happy. Having caregiver alters really helps with this process, as I tend to have difficulties self caring on my own but they're always there to remind me and take control of the body to help aid in the process.
3/8/2026
Completely forgot to write about this yesterday but we are sooo excited for the new dorms + characters coming to Twisted Wonderland! I was wondering when they were going to give us more RSA content and now we're finally getting it... a whole 6 years later XD. So far, all we've seen is everyone's silouhettes, two dorm reveals, and little eye sneak peeks of who is most likely Prince Rielle and someone maybe based off Jasmine. Marinafinne and Dunasmina are such pretty names for dorms, and I love their logos! The other silouhettes, in order, look like an Alice inspired character , maybe Prince Falena?, Prince Rielle, a Jasmine inspired character, Neige (but in a different outfit), a Hercules inspired character, and maybe a character based off one of the Good Fairies? Guess we'll see when they all officially get revealed!
Onto a different topic, while we didn't write about it since we were busy with life and the Blueycapsules Archive, the anniversary of our syscovery was actually last month. I can't believe it's been a whole year since we've discovered we were a system. It's certainly been quite the ride over that entire year. We've always had the symptoms for OSDD-1B, they started when we were very little. Of course, I didn't understand what was going on and neither did the people around me. I just figured a lot of what was happening to me was a normal occurence, such as hearing voices in my head (which I thought were my imaginary friends, who I strangely couldn't control, and then later thought were kintypes, who also strangely spoke to me), among other things. When we first discovered otherkin, it explained what we were going through partially, but it never fully encompassed our experiences. So, even in that community, we felt a bit like an outsider. And then we found out about other people experiencing plurality and what we were going through finally started to make sense.
This entire year has been us learning more about each other, and really embracing the fact we are a system. Really learning how all of this works and better ways to communicate and identify each other. The best way to describe us Critters is a "polyfragmented system". We get a lot of fragments and split very easily. Very recently we had two fictives make themselves known to us, Gladeon and Guztank. Gladeon's a mix of Gladion and an Umbreon and Guztank a mix of Guzma and a Skuntank. Both come from our hyperfixation on a very old theory of Pokemon Sun and Moon being tied to the Pokemon Mystery Dungeon universe. They've been settling in well. Anywho, we took down our Critters page temporarily as we rework our site, I want to redesign that page and also include more of our alters, even the fragments. Each of them are very important to me and I want all of them to get the spotlight.
In terms of health today, we're doing okay. Our caregive alter, Lilia, let us sleep in since we didn't get much rest last night. Normally, he's very strict about us keeping a schedule but he let it slide just this once. Compared to yesterday, we don't feel as sick either. For some reason, yesterday, we woke up feeling like we were going to keel over and die XD.
3/7/2026
In the past I used to label entries like this as "Life Stuff [number]" but I like this name a lot more. Parodying the "The New York Times", it's the Circus's very own newsletter straight from our very own playhouse! As part of Project : MECO I'd like to write more, as I said I wanted to in my previous journal entry. It's been a few days, but that's mainly cuz Pokopia has been taking all of our time XD
This game has been so good! Many of us Critters have wanted a slow, relaxing, Animal Crossing style Pokemon game for so long. It delivers with that and offers so much more. Besides the adorable gameplay the lore has been sucking us in too. Was not expecting a game like this to have a pretty dark plot, but it does! Pokemon meets Animal Crossing meets Minecraft, in post apocalyptic Kanto! It sounds like a fever dream of a concept but boy did they make it work!
Whenever I unlock a new area I can't help but immediately go searching everywhere for secrets and any human relics. I have so many theories about the story so far, but I'm gonna wait to find out the full story before I ramble about that. Currently, I'm working through Bleak Beach and Rocky Ridges. My favorite location would have to be the first one though, it's so cozy to me!
Outside of Pokopia I've still been slowly progressing through Tales of Vesperia (though that's been put a little on the backburner as all my focus is on Pokopia right now, thanks hyperfixation!). It's been such a blast of a game. The last time I played a Tales Of game was Tales of the Abyss which was... nearly 10 years ago XD. I've been meaning to replay it + play the other Tales Of games so as part of Project: MECO, one of our goalsis to finally get around to doing the things we've been putting off! I think I've hit the midway point of the game because I have almost every character recruited outside of Patty, and Barbos is dead... or so we think (I have a feeling he's gonna come back somehow). Yuri just murdered Ragou, and doesn't want to send off Estelle before she leaves. I knew Yuri was never one to really follow rules but damn, what a badass move he did there! I hope this darker, more vigilante route continues for his character and like haunts him in a way. Because there's no way what he did is just gonna sink to the bottom of the ocean like Ragou's corpse did.
Gaming aside, I've gotten more stuff for our collection. Our local Hot Topic had both of the currently available Twisted Wonderland shirts and I was able to snag both of them! I love them both so much and it's fun talking with other people who recognize where our shirt is from. We also finally got around to ordering some Hex stuff and got Candy, Popgoes, Withered Bonnie, and the Ennard shirt. Honestly, I'd say the high prices are totally worth it. They're very high quality plushies + shirt and the extra goodies that come with them are great. The plushies all come in custom bags (depending on what wave you get them from) and each comes with their own custom card and accessory! The shirt also has a cool custom tag as well! The magnets make these plushies super fun to mess with too, mix matching their parts and even sticking them onto any other metal object (such as turning my fan into a three-headed animatronic fan XD).
As for our health, we're doing okayish. Another part of Project: MECO we want to focus on is really bettering our mental health, as mentioned in the previous entry. This also means writing about our journey, at least as much of it as we are comfortable writing. Things have been a bit better than usual. We've been really focusing on keeping a strict schedule and pattern with our day to day life, and it's really helped us feel better. From when we wake up to when we eat, shower, etc. Doing things at specific times repeatedly just helps us function better.
We've been trying to really incorporate meditation back into our daily routine as well. Critter Serpula was the one who introduced it to us back in 2024, and its one of the only things that really helps calm and declutter our brain. Its really easy to skip it but skipping it always ends up making us not feel great later. We sit there pondering, "Gee, wonder why I'm so anxious and have a racing mind?", meanwhile we didn't take the time to calm ourselves XD It's been hard incorporating it back into our schedule, but we're trying. Slowly but surely, we're trying.
3/3/2026
It wasn't even 4 months ago that we closed the chapter on the "Traverse Town" saga of our website and opened up a new page for "Critter Show Circus"... and now here we are with our site's newest version the "Critter Show Circus x Traverse Town" mix XD. Are we indecisive? Absolutely. I couldn't stay away from our original site for too long, it means so much to us. However, I didn't want to fully erase what we had created for CSC since I also really love it, so all of us here decided... why not combine them? The old and the new, together as one. I had originally wanted to downsize with the Critter Show Circus, hense why all of our old pages and what not got removed but... I really loved having so many pages to explore and work on with the previous site. I've never been one to do things "bite-sized", at least not for long.
I will say, CSC x Traverse Town technically isn't just a two-way mix, it's also incorporating elements from our other websites. Anyone remember Serpula Lacrymans and, what would later become, Isle of Lamentation? No? Well, to put it simply, they were our more adult-oriented sites before we eventually just moved all of our adult works onto here. It's a mix of those as well! But, having the title of "Critter Show Circus x Traverse Town x Serpula Lacrymans x Isle of Lamentation" is quite the mouthful and CSC x TT is already long enough as is XD
I am hoping this will be the last time we majorly change things... AGAIN. I really would like to just stick to one design for our website, at least for a long while. I can't promise anything but, this makes us happy for now. I wanna focus on bringing back the rest of our old pages/content from TT (and our other sites) and then eventually adding in newer pages such as an OC page and maybe a movie/show review one too... and who knows what else! We also were working on an MLP merch collection page... and then never finished it XD. So much stuff on the backlog, so many WIPs...
There's been a few times we mentioned wanting to Journal more and we still have that as a goal. It got put on the wayside for a few reasons. Mental health got in the way, then we were dissatisfied with our site (this was when we were wanting to convert it back to Traverse Town), and then major production began on the Blueycapsules Archive and that took up most of our attention from November of 2025 to February of 2026. I won't write too much about that here since I did on its dedicated website but I will say... that really burned me out of working on any big projects for a long while. I don't really see working on our own personal website too much as a project since... well it technically is but it feels more casual for us. Like a relaxing hobby instead of this big thing. There is, however, one massive project I will be working on and its one me and my alters will be working on from now to the foreseeable future...
It's Project: MECO! Short for Me and Company, it's an entire project dedicated to focusing on finding the best ways for the Critters to self care, build good habits, stay happy, and catch up on anything we've been putting off! Haha, okay, technically we've already been doing this but the idea of making it into a project has us all really motivated. Mental health is something we've always struggled with, and it's really in more recent years we've been actively trying to fix it. Ever since Hurricane Helene happened in 2024 our mental health really dipped down again and it's been affecting every aspect of our life. I really wanna get it fixed again, not just for me, but every Critter apart of Critter Show. Plus, with our bad mental health comes us putting off so many things. Doing art, writing... we've had video games from 10 years ago till now that we never finish/never start and they've just been piling up. We wanna finally start playing them instead of continuing to buy new games... which, okay we preordered Pokopia and it releases in 2 days as of writing this but that's an exception XD We finally got around to buying a wig back in January and the supplies to style it for a cosplay and have barely touched it. There's so many other things we've been putting off and it contributes to our mental health. It's like an ouroboros basically, our mental health is bad so we don't wanna do stuff but when we don't do stuff our mental health gets worse.
I might make a dedicated page for MECO, though technically every page on our site is apart of MECO. Every little thing we do that makes us happy goes toward it. I don't know, we'll see. I don't want MECO to just be a one off thing mentioned in this journal entry. It's a big deal to all of us Critters and so I wanna make it a big deal on our site. I will say, and this has been obvious with how we update our site nowadays, updates will not be as frequent as they once were years ago. I remember trying to push out updates very often which... never again XD. To be fair, not all of it was overworking ourselves. We were just really hyperfixated at the time on working on our site. But, I wanna take things more slowly. Updates will happen whenever they happen. Our site only exists to make us happy, after all, so why suck the joy out of that?
Anyway, that's all I really have to write today. We've mostly just been focusing on MECO as of recently. Finding better ways to self care and make ourselves happy. We've been trying to meditate a lot more too since we dropped that good habit... and of course that only made us feel worse. Serpula's been fronting a lot more lately to help us get back on track (he was the one who first introduced it to us back in 2024). We've also begun working on our huge backlog of games we've been putting off, starting with Tales of Vesperia! We've also been getting back into playing Animal Jam Classic and Dreamlight Valley (since we wanna have a good mix of playing games from our backlog as well as any current games, that way we don't get tired of sticking to just one game).
1/28/2026
We decided to spend an entire month on the platform of Twitter (or X, but we will be referring to it by its original name). We did it for a few reasons. One, we wanted to find like minded individuals who shared similar interests to us. Not just fandom wise but also kink wise too. Two, if we were able to connect to said individuals it would help us better accept this kinkier side of ourself since we knew we weren't alone. And three, we wanted to experience something we hadn't really before. We had used Twitter in the past but only a little, and it wasn't enough to really help us get familiarized with the platform. As a bonus four, we also wanted to try out social media again and see if we'd stay on it this time. Needless to say, no, we didn't stay XD.
So how did it go? Well, quite positively, I'd say. I was expecting us to immediately get harassed and what have you as all the horror stories detail, but none of the sort happened. Never encountered any bad actors, in fact quite the opposite, we met a lot of really nice and great people. We've always been a loner, and trying to connect with others has always been very difficult for us due to our neurodivergency. But, we were able to learn to communicate better with others, I feel, and we pushed past our fears and really made an effort towards conquering them. Many of these people we interacted with also shared similar fandoms and kinks with us. People who were very open about these kinks, who, at least appeared, to have no shame in them. I admired their bravery and over this past month its really helped me gain confidence in this side of myself. Though created a little earlier than our Twitter, we started writing "Night on Mount Lysá" around this time period. That, too, was also created to help us accept our kinkier side as well as our want to delve into more "dead dove" topics. Not sure if we'll ever finish it, but that also helped us grow to accept ourselves more as we wrote it with no restraints. Anyway, back on topic, there were so many talented artists on Twitter as well. I found it an honor to be able to give my support to these people, and even more of an honor when they enjoyed my works as well.
Our alter Lilia, who normally is reluctant on us joining social media due to potential mental health concerns, said he'd allow us to remain on Twitter until our joy ran out. Well, after about a month that joy ran out, and I saw no reason to force us to stay on there. As mentioned above, there were a lot of positives that came out of it. But, we've never really been much of social media people. I'd say its due to our upbringing of not really being on them, and also because our experiences on platforms such as Instagram weren't so positive. It was also very overwhelming to use and a bit harder to navigate and find content compared to Tumblr. Plus, it felt like it was taking a lot of time away from our hobbies and also from working on our website. So, following what Lilia said, I figured our little "Experience Twitter" project was over. I had my fill, I experienced what I wanted to, and I met some very cool people and helped build confidence and self love in myself.
Would I recommend this platform to anyone? I guess it depends. There is something to be said about the man who currently runs it, as well as his decision making both on and off platform. Though, if you don't care about that then maybe. As long as you curate your experience and just watch out who you interact with, it should go fine. It's an easy way to get connected with people with similar interests, mindsets, etc. I'm aware Twitter has a bad reputation of being the place people go to to start drama, but realistically this happens on every platform. Like I mentioned earlier, curate your experience and be careful who you interact with. If anything, I'd say people should try it out and see what they think.
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